Suicide note says BCF inmate felt ‘unloved’

A suicide note left behind by a Bordelais Correctional Facility (BCF) inmate who attempted to do away with himself on Thursday, said that he felt ‘betrayed, rejected and unloved’.

Marvin Moise, 45, who is serving a life sentence for murder, was found by BCF guards on Thursday morning after in a standing position with a noose made from a bed sheet around his neck.

He was initially treated at the BCF Medical Unit and subsequently transferred to the Dennery Hospital.

The former resident of Bocage is currently receiving medical care.

“No one knows how I feel but me. I try to do my best, but it’s not good enough,” the suicide note that was found in his cell in the maximum security section of BCF stated.

“My mother is dead, my brother is dead, my father is dead, my children’s mother is dead, my grandparents are also dead,” Moise wrote, adding that he has also lost those who promised to stand by his side.

The inmate asserted that life was not what he dreamed it would be.

“It’s a mess,” he declared.

Moise also wrote that he was sorry if he hurt anyone.

“This world is not my home – I have to go and meet my mother,” he said.

Mervin Moise has been incarcerated from December 15, 1998 and was previously on suicide watch in September 2016.


  1. Anonymous
    September 1, 2017 at 4:42 pm

    That is usually the case. People we think really care for us are usually not around us when we need them most. Maybe God has a purpose for you.

  2. Bella
    September 1, 2017 at 4:43 pm

    That is so sad I am really feeling it for him

  3. Tasha
    September 1, 2017 at 4:49 pm

    Choosps you murder someone that had a family

    1. Anonymous
      September 1, 2017 at 5:02 pm

      What goes around comes around

  4. eva
    September 1, 2017 at 5:01 pm

    There’s people who committed murder after him and they’re out doing more things .. give this poor man a chance , for Christ’s sake .. over 20 something years .. the justice system here is really poor

    1. Lucianman101
      September 1, 2017 at 5:03 pm

      The guy killed somebody why should he be set free

    2. The One
      September 1, 2017 at 5:07 pm

      You must be a family member

  5. The One
    September 1, 2017 at 5:06 pm

    Every time these idiots do their (Word deleted) they always try to get people to feel sorry for them. If is love you needed look for a job and a woman to love you and turn to GOD not crime and then want people to feel sorry for you away.

    1. Anonymous
      September 1, 2017 at 6:47 pm

      You really think he cares if people feel sorry for him? He was being 100% honest, because he wrote it before trying to commit suicide. That is not attention seeking. That is full 100% honesty.

  6. Anonymous
    September 1, 2017 at 5:56 pm

    Only God can fix this ,every one need a second chance .

  7. Lilac.
    September 1, 2017 at 6:42 pm

    Stop being judgemental.

    1. Lilac.
      September 1, 2017 at 6:59 pm

      He realized he did wrong hence the reason he said he is sorry. If he is truly sorry God has forgiven him. Sometimes we fail to take out the beam in our eyes but we always see the mote in another one eye. Let’s pray that he changes. Let’s lead him to the cross. Let’s lead him to Jesus.

      1. Anonymous
        September 2, 2017 at 5:52 am

        I didn’t read that he regarded the person And family he caused pain And harm. This man is selfish And refuse to face the consequences of his actions.they want to murder And be set free. All the murders should hang their self you only feel the pain And understand the anguish When One of your own family members have been murdered or rape By these scumbags. the person he killed is hunting him. Live with It You bastard.Dying Is way too easy

      2. Anonymous
        September 3, 2017 at 10:32 am

        You have no idea what the murder victim did. He could have raped, murdered, molested, robbed or otherwise.

      3. Tee
        September 3, 2017 at 6:00 pm

        Well said!

  8. Anonymous
    September 1, 2017 at 7:12 pm

    mr moise read your bible, nobody eh send you and murder chpz

  9. Bad gyal
    September 1, 2017 at 7:28 pm

    Paychew zort… Stop judging you all hypocrites

    1. Bad bwoy
      September 21, 2017 at 7:10 am

      Stop judging erh .. if today or tmr one of those Viayyyy Neggs Rape or Rob you i bet you’ll be singing a different Tune .. i dont call Jail upon nobody because i have Family who went and is still in there .. but im sure there is a reason this Man was locked up frm since 1998 according to alkaline No man is Perfect no.. we have our choices and our Flaws so have a good day bad gyal an think before you speak

  10. Anonymous
    September 1, 2017 at 7:29 pm


  11. Anonymous
    September 1, 2017 at 7:31 pm

    After u behind bars for murder u still trying to kill take ur own life some people never learn

  12. Trump
    September 1, 2017 at 8:09 pm

    he is without sin cast the first stone god is a god of a second chance.He died for the worst of sinners. Please let us show mercy cause none of us is perferct.

    1. DIZZY
      September 3, 2017 at 12:33 pm

      God didn’t die but oh well.

  13. Anonymous
    September 1, 2017 at 9:00 pm

    St Lucian…..o my stop judging some times….that man …need a second chance…20 yes not easy….And so much …yrs it not easy

  14. Anonymous
    September 1, 2017 at 9:07 pm

    God take controle over this mans life give him a chance to change an prove him self to society

  15. Anonymous
    September 1, 2017 at 9:50 pm

    Everything happen to him for a reason ….things jus don’t hsppen just like tht

  16. Anonymous
    September 2, 2017 at 1:40 am

    And may the universe guide to perfect peace. I say let him die, its his choice.

  17. Anonymous
    September 2, 2017 at 7:16 am

    That’s so sad

  18. Unknown
    September 2, 2017 at 8:07 am

    In Understandable terms Who has never done wrongful acts(sin) cast the first stone… Do yourll know why he committed the murder? Alot of people react to anger and Fear maybe it wasn’t deliberate maybe it was…. We never knw maybe he reported to the police because he was being bothered… This guy has done many years there seen Guys who did worst than him come in and go out…. But Soldier man you took a Life you’re wrong, you hurt A mother/father, uncle,aunt, cousin, brother, sister, son, daughter you hurt a Family now you have to Pay the Consequences of the Land… Maybe your time to be out is not yet to come because you’re in Maximum security if you was changed they maybe might have you on Parole… Maybe Freedom will Come one Day

  19. Common Sense St. Lucian
    September 2, 2017 at 10:59 am

    Mr Moise you are hurting and for that I feel so sorry for you. But at the same time there is also a family that is still hurting today because of your actions. You took away their love one from them. I know for sure this family today has not gotten over the pain and hurt that you have caused them. They are still crying and hurting over their love one that you have murdered.

    You are in prison today only because of your actions. You need to accept your fate. Turn to God. Seek forgiveness from God. Also seek forgiveness from the family that you have hurt. Then only can you be at peace with yourself. Eventually your life sentence will come to an end. You know very well Life sentence doesn’t mean that you will be prison for the rest of your life or until death. You will be out one day.

    Right now you need healing. I realize that you have regretted your actions. While you are serving your sentence take this time for psychological and emotional healing. I believe a counselor or psychologist should be assigned to you to assist you with your healing process.

    Also while you are serving your sentence, the family that you have hurt will also used that period for their emotional healing. In due time the hurting family will forgive you.

  20. Anonymous
    September 2, 2017 at 1:08 pm

    I know this gentleman.He had an abusive father.I knew him to be quiet and unassuming.He was involved in a robbery gone wrong and ended up killing a man.I make no excuse for this behavior but if he has repented and is remorseful lets not judge him further.He said his mother and father are both dead but wanted to go and meet his mother.Understsnd?

    1. Anonymous
      September 3, 2017 at 10:34 am

      Childhood abuse causes crime

  21. Anonymous
    September 2, 2017 at 3:15 pm

    The Sad reality is that even if he gets out he will still try to take his life. He has lost a lot and is vulnerable.He is human and he will experience the feelings of loss in a major way just like we all might, given the losses experienced. The fact.that he has killed is compounding his sense of worthlessness. I hope he gets the psychological help necessary to be able to cope with his reality. Prayers for this man. He deserves to pay for his crime, however he needs help to cope as we all do from time to time.

  22. Lucian!
    September 2, 2017 at 11:20 pm

    When you release him with all that hurt and anger where you sending him? He needs to stay at the BCF to be rehabilated.

    1. Anonymous
      September 3, 2017 at 9:50 am

      True, where we putting him? People that have need to do more. Why outsource when we have enough of the rich on island to facilitate organizations for good mental health.

  23. Anonymous
    September 3, 2017 at 9:24 am

    We need to use him as an example to young kids acting out their hurt in society with anger towards others. This is what happens when you lash out and take a life. You may get alittle instant satisfaction when you get to do what you want by killing someone but it never last. You never really win. Not feeling loved? What did he expect? A Nobel prize? Let him suffer. This is real life. Live it.

  24. Anonymous
    September 3, 2017 at 9:40 am

    This is an example of how important mental health should be on our island. We have alot of men who were never taught how to express themselves because there were never really thought as humans. They were thought of as animals. This is the result of slavery. Well on this small island with no where to go, we all close now. Let the old families start fixing what they caused. Their decendants are the rich that keep hoarding their money in their pockets thinking security cameras and a gun will save their whole family all the time. Start using the money to help others. You will be helping yourself. So yes, he hurting in jail now where he has lost his right to be loved just like the person he killed lost their right to live. So lets let’s start taking care of those who have not gone that route yet. Start taking out all the old money and new money growing from the old and building proper health facilities for all.

  25. Anonymous
    September 3, 2017 at 9:46 am

    Old Chastnet needs to do more for st Lucia. Use some of the money you have and build more health care facilities. Every single person on island has put money in your pocket so start giving out more. St Lucians need to resist more.

  26. Community resident
    September 3, 2017 at 6:57 pm

    his story was on untold stories . the guy killed an innocent man at his business place cause he wanted money. that man was a kind person who would help anyone in the communitu. that man had a family who lost their loved one and sole breadwinner. he never told the police the others who helped him commit robbery and murder. he also attempted to rape a young lady in the community. he is known for many other acts of violence. so why is he making headlines. i say if he wants to take his life let him. i think that is whats best for him and for us all. i am not mary francis my sympathies are with the victim’s family not him

  27. Anonymous
    September 5, 2017 at 10:02 pm

    These are the people we have to reach out for and tell them about the love of God they dont need your forgiveness God have already forginen them dont be supise to see them looking down on you burning in hell people can repent in prison and live happily there with jesus on their side while you out there wishing to see them burn in hell you better pray for your enemies life is hard. I will continue to pray for him and others

  28. Anonymous
    September 21, 2017 at 7:07 am

    Here they go again. .diarrhea in the mouth..hurricane done.lets bash each other why dony you’ll find something constructive to find a job.or ask God for mose is not the only one should ask forgiveness.the people who post all these negative comments. need to ask Gods forgiveness to..and hear this.if we do not forgive one another.then our heavenly father will. Not forgive us our trespasses either..go surch you’ll Bibles. thats if you’ll own one..and leave people business alone.God is watching us..the wrong things we doing..and the wrong things we saying..he just watching us from a distance..and of course yes mr mose deserves to be free..twenty years .i dont think he is the only one that have kill some one..

  29. Anonymous
    September 21, 2017 at 7:15 am

    Here we go again…hurricane gone lest start with our bad minds again..what a 😳 shame.northing seems to stop lucians from trifling..stop the negative Comments. ..God is asking for all waring against each other..God is watching us..from a distance the wrong things we doing and the wrong tings we saying..he is just watching us.

  30. Anonymous
    September 21, 2017 at 7:29 am

    I am pretty sure..not everyone who post about mr.mose can lift up their holy hands towards heaven.every hands have been 🔴 stained. .so lets not pretend that we are perfect.for all have’ll know the rest

  31. Thinker
    September 24, 2017 at 1:17 am

    St Lucia should do something about mental health it’s a crisis for years in the society.

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